I'm not really a blog person, but I read a friend's friend's blog, and found it very interesting. He is an FtM guy and had some interesting posts and things to say. Thus, I decided to feed my own ego a little bit and start my own, except it's in reverse.
My name is Alison, and I live in Scotland. Bit dreary, quite a politically liberal country, although outside of the main cities people are quite conservatively minded. I grew up as a bit of a geeky male, interested in transport, sci-fi, knowledge, and of course unobtainable women.
Over the last year or so, I've been coming to terms with my gender. I've reached the conclusion that I want to do something about it, perhaps not full surgery, but at least to transition and live as a woman. The problem is that I am currently studying a degree in music, and the 'world' I live in is so small and dangerously traditional. I make a fair bit of money, mostly from the odd live-sound or backstage job, and churches, as a pianist (I have a 0.5 salaried position), stand-in organist, and various other things related to churches and music. I'm extremely anti-religious however, and the more I think about transition, the more I start panicking about my existing contacts, work, and all that stuff. The people I work for are generally anti-LGBT and I don't think I'd keep any of my current regular gigs if I appeared as my true gender.
So far, I've come out to about 5 people about my future transition, and the next step is to actually do something about it. 3 options:
1) NHS. Probably the best option, seeing as it would cost me practically nothing. The problems are that waiting lists are long and there's a high chance of having to go through 6 months of RLT BEFORE even being prescribed hormones. It'll take fucking years.
2) Private. Downside is that it would cost an absolute fortune and I don't really have that kind of money. Could get the ball rolling easily though, but I would have to scrimp and save everywhere else and I need money for my studies, for music, equipment, etc.
3) Illegally. Not too difficult to do, but there are a lot of health risks. Probably not the one for me, as I'm not one of those girls that is like "CUT THIS OFF OR KILL ME NOW!". But, if the NHS are being completely useless about it time-wise, maybe a short term solution while NHS stuff is being sorted out?
Anyway, enough about all of this. I realise, looking back at it, that I haven't actually done a good introduction at all. I might try and write a take-two tomorrow.
Until then, Ciao!
Alison xx
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